Ego (in a negative sense) is that which obstructs the free creative flow of self – expression of self in all forms. The illusion is within the consciousness in the form of an obscure perception and a limited comprehension of experience within the individual consciousness. There is nothing wrong with the manifestation or any experience within this manifestation as long as this experience leaves no trace on the individual consciousness, nor it creates recollection, longing or projection.
The ego, or limited self-identity is the very seed of and for our existence. However, the level of self-realisation and awareness through this identity matters. In order to be free, we are to experience the natural mind, free from projections and recollections.
Ego is our past remembered, our future projected and our present analysed and interpreted. Consciousness churns karmic information into emotional and thought forms which get reflected through our life situations and circumstances. Karmic information manifests in this life so that we can free ourselves from it. In order to do that we have to learn to perceive our conditional limited elements clearly and neutralise them naturally through abiding in the non-grasping and content Natural Mind.
By realising that our experience is the product of the ego (or distortions within the consciousness) and by experiencing the Natural Mind in its stillness and neutrality we can realise that there is nothing wrong with the experience or manifestation but with the consciousness having tendencies, inclinations and assumptions (judgement) towards one experience over the other.
It is not the natural experience itself which causes suffering but the limited mind that divides, grasps and clings to certain temporal experiences. Such a perception gives rises to the consensus hallucinatory perception of reality. Instead of the Natural Mind being able to naturally abide in its own blissful essence, it’s power is projected onto images and objects that are interpreted as appearing ‘outside’ of self. This is what causes the false perception of a ‘me’ in here and a ‘them’ out there. The problem arises because that which appears as ‘me’ wants to grasp, box and control that which is perceived as outside of itself, but that which appears as outside is naturally subject to change, transformation and eventual dissolution. Therefore the ego’s sense of stability and contentment is constantly at the mercy of its own crumbling limited projections. The suffering-perception of reality is based on an absolute hallucinatory, disintegrated and insane perception of a reality that is in fact naturally empty, unobscured, non-dual and not fragmented.
Ego is that which recollects, analyses, judges, projects and is of an anxious and ambitious nature. True Being, Natural Mind or whatever you want to call it – the Reality is neutral, still, empty, equanimous and blissful (creative in potentiality). Once you experience the Natural Mind – Being, you automatically know that which is of a transitory nature. Emotions and thought waves are distortions of the limited mind-being, yet they actually come from the Ultimate Being and are inseparable from that Being. It is not possible to kill them or run away from them, just as it is not possible to run away from the self. You may only realise the nature of the consciousness manifesting the illusion from the essence of the Self – the unlimited, unobscured space of Self-Being.
Only when you realise that it is the Space itself that vibrates and spontaneously produces the phenomena (that is naturally unconditioned and empty at its root) can you master the self as that Space and gradually subside the waves within the self and abide as That. This is the path of Siddha Kundalini Yoga or Natural Spiritual Being.