There are various depths and levels of surrender. But surrender always means to let go to some degree. To surrender never means to take a stand of passivity and resignation in action, but rather it means to let go on the level of the mind. In fact the word ‘surrender’ already carries some kind of emotional connotation, it acknowledges some kind of threat or possibility of trouble that one has to let go and surrender before. But if one really surrenders deeply then one will discover that there was never anything to surrender, rather there is the simple process of taming and stilling the mind in each and every moment. The whole game and dynamic of the spiritual path is based on the fact that life will seemingly continue to test the degree to which one can let go of the mind and simply flow. The individual mind-consciousness unravels itself through the life situations in order to resolve itself into neutrality. The moment by moment arising creation is digested and burnt when observed through neutrality, stillness and contentment.
Many often find it difficult to balance acceptance and surrender with willful and determined action. If there is still such a dilemma or feeling of imbalance then the depths of surrender have not yet been reached. Because the surrendered condition is simply the equanimous and content being resting in itself and yet perceiving and flowing within the creation. There can only be a dilemma of when to act and when not to act when the conditional mind is not completely still and withdrawn. Actually, in the moment, one just acts. Before the action, one does not project and after the action one does not recollect, analyse or pass judgement. So where is the dilemma of when to act, fight, push and when to just let go? Because these are not separate things. In the equanimous state creative action carries on, but it is not analysed.
Before the mind is established in stillness it is still pulled into projections of past and future; there is still a projected idea that an action can be wrong or right, better or worse. This is because one is always weighing the result of the action in terms of what it brings to self. Why? Because one still projects contentment on to the outcomes of happenings within the world. Thus the mind is always drained in the process of calculating the outcomes of future actions. Real surrender means that one does not actually care. One lives and flows spontaneously out of that content and equanimous being. And this is also the true meaning of selfless action: that one is not acting through any kind of calculation, analysis or predetermined decision. When one acts, one is not trying to create more happiness to self or assuage any kind a constant fearful condition.
Most of the time beings try to act toward their own benefit in one way or another, always trying to go towards more happiness and avoid suffering. Yet how many truly succeed through such a method? And does this not point to the fact that true contentment is not to be found in the realm of conditions?
The being that abides in the state of contentment has ceased to imagine or plan out their life with a sense of radical urgency that is based on fear. They live in the moment of now and each moment is burnt in content self-awareness. There can no longer be such questions as ‘did I do right?’ or ‘should I have done it that way instead?’ Because that previous contracted and congested sense of ‘I’ that has to be constantly carefully managed, massaged, reassured and curated has been overwhelmed by the sense of silence and bliss that comes from establishment in the real natural ‘I’ of one’s own un-projected state.
It is not to say that such a being begins to act like a stereotypical saint at all times. It may in fact look very different. If that being hurts someone and they see that they acted in a way that might have seemed callous, they may apologise and seek to heal any damage that may have been done to the relationship. But there will be no guilt, shame, self-judgement or feeling of regret there. There will just be that, the natural organic response to life. But everyone seems to be programmed to think that this natural organic response to life also requires some kind of parallel constant self-talk, analysis and projection on the part of the limited, thinking mind. It doesn’t. And when one realises that it doesn’t’ then one may really begin to live life fully.
The state of natural equanimous self-being which is the termination point of the surrendered mind and is both the content unmoving resting place of the un-projected self and the source of the dynamic and spontaneous projected movement within the creation. That state requires no artificial balancing or altering. It is the source and foundation of life itself. It is harmony.